Opening up

Today in this blog I would want to talk about something about me and my life

I am Filipino teenager who suffers from anxiety and depression over the times I 

have felt afraid, alone and destroyed. A lot of people would always misunderstood

on what's happening to me they wouldn't understand what's going on in my mind.

Often times I would seem to be normal but but inside i'm breaking. I can't even count the times anxiety and depression has ruined me.There are countless times that I have felt thatI have let other people down. I am surrounded with great people but I keep on pushing them away because I just felt so alone and isolated that it takes a lot of courage for me to get out of bed to do normal things that a teenager does. I have drop out of school and started homeschooling because I had a very hard time dealing with my panic attacks, my anxiety and my depression to me it was all too much and going to school is a very huge challenge for me. I have been trying to hold on for the longest time but I never seem to have the voice to speak out my real intention and feelings to others, I have a hard time expressing the real me to other people because if I show the real me then i would not be the happy person that they know. I always say that I am doing fine I am recovering but really to me everything always remains the same to me everything is hopeless, I keep one trying my best to be me and be happy but for me it is hard because my real me isn't happy.